My computer is fine again.. but I am in totally agony with period pains. I was so close to having some of the only cooked food I could find last night.. some pasta and a jar of tomato sauce. I wanted warmth and comfort without any chopping etc. I did not succumb because I was in too much pain to stand stirring the pan and wait for pasta to cook. I told myself cooked was not the answer... I was tired from going to the restaurant and getting an external hard drive for my pc. I had managed to get 6 young coconuts from Tesco and I cancelled my cooked food thinking and started to dream about young coconut water. I managed to get the energy to cut into a coconut and then had a mango. I took my painful uterus to the computer and installed the hard drive and then thought I could just copy my current hard drive. No not that simple since some files were being used and could not be copied. This meant that I had to stay at the computer and manually copy each folder and then each file until I had them all done. It took about 3 hours. But I seem to have a stable computer and dont have to reformat my drive yet. If I do then I have a full backup, warts and all, and so I feel safe that I wont have lost any important file.
So food. I really think that my period is worse on raw food, but then I am believing that if I stay very raw for 3 months this will change. That is my belief and that is what I am going to manifest.
Meanwhile I have lots of fruit and vegetables and a weekend to make raw food.. and all I want to do is lie down and die. So I am going to log off and lie down and watch some raw videos. I have lots from years ago. Or maybe I should watch a movie and just enjoy myself. I think I am getting too overwhelmed with raw food. I think that the truth seems to be that everyone has their own way of making raw food happen. And this is good. We must find a way that is in harmony with out bodies, at first trying lots of things since we wont know what is best for ourselves.
Right now I just crave avocados which I have not had a lot of. So I will have some.
I do need to make more granola, but dont have raw oats so will have to make do with cooked organic oats. I will put lots of goji berries in it to compensate. I also need to make some kind of bread and some kind of sweet treat.
I also had some good news on the sedona front. I have booked my table at SAF and was trying to find somewhere nice and cheap to stay in london but could not really find anywhere. I was waiting for something to appear on a last minute website and then my friend said that they were driving to heathrow that day and they could take me and I could stay with them. I mentioned SAF and in return I just have to buy them a raw meal. So now I have someone to eat with. How wonderful is that. So I changed the SAF reservation to two.
I am so looking forward to it.
I got really ill again in the evening and I tried to have a carob smoothie but this really made me feel sickly. I ended up making some healthy spaghetti and going to bed.
This is not a great Saturday. I am bleeding like mad... and I dont usually bleed very much at all. I hope tomorrow is better.
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